Maybe I spoke too soon. My future - at this company, in life - seems in jeopardy through no fault of any one person. Least of all mine. I feel cheated and disappointed. I have been lucky, lazy and insincere at school and work my entire life. I have always gotten grades, jobs and raises that I don't deserve and I have been the first to acknowledge that. But this was different. I was different. I gave a shit. I put in long hours and I put the job first. My social life dwindled to a night out a week but I didn't care. I was happy, I put aside worries about relationships and family and I lost myself while at work. And now this.
To be told that there is nothing that can be done to salvage the situation, despite every single thing I've done for this firm, to be told that I'd have to go back to the 'other' division - the glamorous yet soul-crushing, self-esteem breaking division that chewed me up and spat me out within two months - that, my friends, sucks balls.
Mondays are never my good days, and today is especially bad. I have no motivation, no desire, no steam. Add to that the all-familiar sense of despair that comes from marking yet another big-family-occasion date without him. The confusing mix of emotions that I no longer have the strength to untangle leave me drained. Suffice to say I'm barely holding up. How do people cheer themselves up, again?
A life together
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8 comments:
That's how life sets you up for the fall. It lulls you into this false sense of 'everything's la la la', and then when you come across one thing that you really want and really like and really would like to keep, it goes 'ok bye bye'.
Keep chin up and pointed. Then poke it into the eye of anybody in your old department, if they mess with you again.
Maybe it's time for you to take a step back and really look at this, and see if it's what you really want..?
How do people cheer themselves up, again?
Actually, it's chin down, bottoms up and volume up.
This too shall pass.
//your word verification is discriminatory: "hoomo"
Time is on your side. You have practically your whole life ahead of you so two steps forward and one step back is a game you can afford to play.
Try chain smoking, drinking vodka and eating chips and chocolate at the same time... at least you've found what you really want to do (even if you're not doing it... yet).
maybe its all for the best
Look chuckles,
this way, when you write your novel, the seminal work encapsulating your (our?) generation's experience of its twenties - you'll have first hand experience of working and then not working in something finance-y.
Greed is good. Don't be disheartened just yet. :). And if you are, lean on Dylan.
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